2 years!

I can not believe it's been 2 years since finding our we were expecting! Where has time gone!

 

I don't really remember most of the details to that day. It seem like a normal day. I remember thinking I hadn't "started" and knew I was "late" but had no idea I was actually pregnant! I stopped by CVS (knowing I wouldn't run into anyone) to buy a pregnancy test and came on home. Cooked dinner, ate and Josh was like would you please go take that test! WHY, I'm not pregnant, I feel normal - my response, LOL. OMG, if that darn test didn't turn positive before I got the gosh darn top on it!

My next response - Hey Josh, you want an early Valentines gift? UM it's positive!

Josh's response - Take the other test just to make sure! HAHAHAHA

 

A flood of emotions came over me, Josh tearing up kept saying over and over and over (okay, he probably said it like 2 or 3 times) "we are having a baby!".

 

Scared doesn't even compare to how I felt! I was horrified, what if I can't do this, what if I'm not ready, what if, what if, what if! (this is normal behavior for me! I'm scared and nervous about everything!!!!!)

 

Josh was so excited that when the phone rang and it was a telemarketer he announce we are having a baby! HAHA

 

I didn't want to tell people however Josh couldn't contain himself so with pregnancy test in hand (zip lock bag) we headed to my parents house. Josh literally threw the bag to my dad (gross, I know) and of course my dad was like "what is this?". My mom knew instantly! We had not told anyone (except my 2 best friends) that I had gone off the pill in July after my sisters wedding. In the past I always used weddings as my excuse, gotta fit in another bridesmaid dress but after Rachel's wedding I ran out of that excuse! Don't get me wrong, children were in my plan I was just SCARED to death about the thought of it! ANYWAYS, of course my parents were excited and I don't remember any of that conversation. On we went to Josh's parents again full of surprise they were thrilled and sadly I don't remember any of that conversation.

 

The next morning I slipped down stairs at the office to make a private phone call to the doctors office. My good friend Cherish worked there and her mom is like the head nurse. I remember saying Ms. Gennie, I took 2 pregnancy test's and they came back positive (she did know I went off the pill). Ms. Gennie said so calmly honey come see me and let's do some blood work but girl you are pregnant! I remember running to her office on my lunch break (this was a Thursday) and she told me the blood work would be back in early Saturday morning and she could tell me my levels.

 

Saturday morning comes and as I am working out at the gym with my mom I got a text from Ms. Gennie saying my levels were perfect and I appeared to be 5-6 weeks! EEEKKKKKK

 

I ran to moms and told Michelle then called Rachel and then of course Kyndal! At this point I was really excited, scared, nervous, every emotion in the world!

 

Our announcement to the world:

 

We decided not to tell people right away other than immediate family. The following week we did more blood work and ultrasound confirming due date of October 13, 2012! 

 

The next few months flew by, were having a girl! Then as you know on October 9, 2012 Karlee Grace entered this world and changed our lives forever!

 

Baby Girl: I may have been scared out of my mind but I had no idea what a positive impact your would have on my life! You taught me to love in a way I never imagined! You have become by best friend at 16 months old. I will always be your biggest fan! I promise to be the absolute best mother I can be because you are by far the best gift ever! I love watching you grow everyday. It's so hard to believe how fast time flies now!